"Don't listen to everyone else...You're the one who will have to live with the consequences."
I'll tell you flat out It hurts so much to think of this... So from my thoughts I will exclude. The very thing that I hate more than everything is the way I'm powerless to dictate my own moods...
I've thrown away the hope I had in friendships. I've thrown away so many things that could have been much more. I've thrown away the secret to find the end to this.. and I just pray my problems will go away if they're ignored, but that's not the way it works...
When I go down, I go down hard... and I take everything I've learned and teach myself some disregard. When I go down, it hurts to hit the bottom and of the things that got me there I think: if only I had fought them? Any control I thought I had just slipped through my hands, while my ever-present conscience shakes its head and reprimands me. Then and there I confess I'll blame all this on my selfishness...
Yet You love me and that consumes me, I'll stand up again & do so willingly. You give me hope, and hope it gives me life. You touch my heavy heart, and when you do You make it light. As I exhale I hear Your voice and I answer You, though I hardly make a noise. From my lips the words I choose to say seem pathetic, but it's a fallen man's praise, cause I love You Oh God...I love You.
life is now worth living... if only because of You and when they say that I am dead and gone it won't be further from the truth.
When I go down, I will lift my eyes to You. I won't look very far, cause You'll be there with open arms to lift me up again...ThankYou
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